Baz before i competed i was similar in a way.i was quite happy training in my shed claiming in my own mind that my gym lifts were legit.it took actually going and training with actual competitors to cure me of the delusion that what i was lifting wasnt legit and wouldnt pass.even after that it took red lights in comp to really disabuse me of that notion.i had to really reasses wat i was capable of and readjust accordingly.something tells me,you are too full of yourself to do that.